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Blending Theory and Practice
by Peter Fenner
"The Great Teaching ... is easy to enter
for those with sharp faculties and quick wits and broad penetration
who don't use their intellectual brilliance to try to comprehend
it." From the Chinese Zen master Yuanwu.
"To reason about uncreated Reality is just to play with
words. Yet from this coherent, playful reasoning, lightening bolts
flash forth as gnostic intuition-totally insubstantial, not coming
into being even for an instant, yet diamond sharp and clear."
From the Perfect Wisdom Discourses (Prajnaparamita-sutra)
of Buddhism.
Various structures have been established over the centuries for
transmitting the contentless wisdom of traditions like Taoism, Vedanta,
Buddhism, and Zen. At one extreme are large teaching institutes
devoted to the study of sacred literatures. At the other extreme
are solitary contemplatives who in the course of a lifetime might
casually awaken the minds of one or two disciples.
In between these two extremes are numerous spiritual centers that
attempt to integrate study and practice by regulating their calendars
around a repeating cycle of study, work and contemplation. In these
centers, students listen-then talk-then implement-then
listen again to their teachers. In this way, the distinct activities
of theorizing and practicing become formally enshrined in the structural
fabric of most spiritual traditions.
What is common to all these structures is a separation between
theory and practice. In the more extreme expressions, either theory
or practice is effectively rejected. Pure contemplatives often hold
up philosophers and scholars for ridicule and scorn. The Chinese
Zen master Yuanwu, accused spiritual intellectuals of "peeing
in bed with their eyes open." Conversely, teaching institutes
often only pay lip service to practice.
Theory and practice
In spiritual traditions, theory and practice are often distinguished
in the following way.
| Theorizing |
Practicing |
| knowing |
experiencing |
| thinking |
not thinking |
| studying |
contemplating |
| locating |
dislocating |
| describing |
disclosing |
| communicating |
remaining silent |
However, segmenting our experience in this way runs contrary to
the wisdom contained in traditions like Zen, Taoism and Vedanta,
which transcends the spheres of the intellect and meditative
experience. As the great Buddhist bodhisattva Subuti says: "Perfect
Wisdom does not present any graspable or thinkable doctrine and
offers no describable method of contemplation." In other
words, real wisdom isn't segmented into a theoretical and an applied
component. The contentless wisdom that is referred to as prajna,
jnana, and vidya, is consistent and continuous with thinking and
not thinking, knowing and not knowing, contemplating and not contemplating.
By displaying a preference for either study or practice, we signal
that we are still able to fully appreciate the timeless wisdom of
the ancient masters.
Whilst we may periodically acknowledge our preference for study
or practice, when we are actually listening to a stimulating discourse
or enjoying our meditation, we often fail to appreciate how these
preferences reflect our personal biases and habits. We just assume
that meditation is valuable, or that study is necessary for spiritual
development. When a bias in favor of "theorizing" or "practicing"
is institutionalized into the fabric of a spiritual system, we can
indulge our predispositions without becoming aware of how we reject
practice in favor of theorizing, or vice versa.
Trapped in our interpretations
The simplest way to discover our attachment to "theorizing"
or "practicing" is to reflect on our experience. If we
enjoy spiritual discourses, consume spiritual books, and frequent
forums at which "experts" offer their "wisdom",
we are clearly attracted to analysis and interpretation. For us,
this is where the action is. If we are obsessed with acquiring information,
we may actively avoid experiential workshops, meditation, or other
forms of practice, since they do not add to our body of knowledge.
If something is missing in our lives we run to find "another"
book, or attend "another" seminar, without reflecting
on our need to acquire more information, or further validate
our beliefs. Also, in reading books and attending presentations
we tend to take it for granted that these will help us. Even if
we aren't sure about the value of our specific sources, at least
we know that this is where we might discover that we are
wrong.
When reading books and listening to presenters we are constantly
active-agreeing and disagreeing with what is being said: "That
is important." "Yes, that sounds right." "I
agree with that." "That's wrong." "They are
misrepresenting the tradition." etc, etc. We "assume"
that writers and speakers "know" what they are talking
about, even if we "know" better. We get caught up in developing
elaborate theories about "reality", "liberation",
"the path", "realization", etc. In no time we
think that we are actually talking about "something",
even if we say that this "something" is "nothing".
Rarely do we ask: "What am I thinking about?" in a way
that actually questions whether we are thinking or talking about
anything at all.
We build fancy and elaborate theories based on flimsy experiential
foundations. The little "practice" we might engage
in is milked for every concept we can squeeze out of it. We
develop complex descriptions about spiritual paths and enlightened
goals. As a result of our study and thinking we become learned and
knowledgeable-and often quite opinionated as well.
Trapped in our experience
If we are attached to "practicing", we will display a
bias for meditation, workshops, or other practical activities. In
fact, if we actively reject intellectual inquiry we will probably
be attracted to the more non-cognitive forms of contemplation such
as simply sitting (zazen), remaining serene (shamatha),
cultivating bare awareness (vidya), or being mindful (satipatthana).
Perhaps we believe that "realization" can only occur
while meditating, or at least that meditation manifestly increases
the possibility for illumination. I mean, everyone knows
that the "actual realization" is more likely
to occur while meditating! In fact, most "practices" validate
their existence through a discourse that this is where the real
work occurs. In thinking this way we easily forget that this is
just a "story" about realization acquired through listening
to talks and reading books.
However, when our practice is disconnected from a descriptive framework
we end up drifting in an inchoate haze of thoughts and ill-defined
feelings. Left to itself, private reflection quickly loses its edge.
We get caught up in the elaborate story-lines of our memories, fears
and fantasies. The thread of our thoughts unravels indefinitely
because we lack the skills to bring it to a natural closure.
Consequently, our meditations often end up in a space where we
just witness our stream of consciousness in a totally passive and
unstructured way. The only difference between day dreaming and
meditation is that in the latter our eyes are generally closed.
Meditation signifies nothing more than a preference to be stimulated
by the mind rather than the world. Instead of seeing through the
fabricated and ephemeral nature of our experience, we just become
very familiar with the ebb and flow of our internal landscape.
Attraction and aversion to speech and silence
Most spiritual systems recognize the potential for people to become
trapped in intellectual activity and introspective quietude. Many
systems attempt to correct a possible imbalance between study and
practice by alternating periods of study with periods of practice.
Most centers, for example, institute a daily routine of private
meditation, physical work (karma yoga), study, discourses,
question and answer sessions, etc. While this structure helps to
break down our extreme fixations with either learning or practicing,
it doesn't deal with our need to "know" what we are doing.
We learn to segment each day into periods of well-defined activities,
and quickly feel comfortable with our predictable and stable "routine".
We hang out for the stillness and quiet of our meditation, or alternatively,
look forward to the stimulation of discourses and group discussions,
which, of course, is something very different from cultivating impartial
wisdom that accommodates to reality, as-it-is.
In fact, if a scheduled lecture or practice session is canceled
or replaced by something else, people can become quite upset or
put out. When our need for information or quite reflection isn't
met we feel cheated and annoyed. In extreme cases people walk out
of lectures and practices sessions, just as they walked out on the
Buddha's enlightened discourses on Perfect Wisdom. Instead, of seeing
the "unexpected" as an opportunity to observe our attraction
and aversion to speech and silence, we just want to get back to
our "preferred" activity. Spirituality becomes a mechnical
and routinized lifestyle, rather than a way of being that transcends
all attraction and aversion with "inner and outer", "waiting
and arriving", "speech and silence", "movement
and stillness", or "getting it and losing it".
Thus, the disclosure of our preferences for "movement and
stillness", "speech and silence", "waiting and
arriving" and "thinking and not thinking", requires
a more penetrating and refined process than simply throwing together
separate periods of study, work, and practice in the one day.
Dialoging
One format that has been used for millennia, and still continues
to be favored by many traditions and teachers is "dialoging".
Traditionally this has taken many different forms, such as the encounter
between gurus and disciples in Hinduism (upadesha), the
intense and dynamic exchanges between master and student in Zen
(dokasan), or formal monastic debate which is still very
alive in Tibetan Buddhism. Dialoging attempts to take the integration
of theory and practice one step further, by stimulating a direct
spiritual experience in the midst of dynamic verbal exchanges. The
assumption here is that analysis and practice need not be two distinct
events. But here too, people continue to display a clear preference
for the periods of talking and silence that naturally punctuate
a dialogue. At the same time that some students feel compelled to
rupture a period of silence with their interpretation of "what
is happening", others will complain that they were really enjoying
the space. Similarly, while some people prefer informal and open-ended
dialogues, others are more comfortable when dialogues occur to a
fixed and predictable schedule. Also, dialogues often revert to
sessions in which people share their stories about their experience
"on the path". Or, alternatively, dialogues become a venue
for teachers to give advice, or make suggestions, about what their
students can do (i.e. practice) at some time in the future.
When our talking or remaining silent aren't legitimated by a theory,
their occurrence or absence can be intense and unsettling. In fact,
some teachers off-set this uncertainty by formally punctuating their
dialogues with short periods of private reflection. Thus, while
dialogues can disclose certain biases towards speech and silence,
movement and stillness, structure and a lack of structure, they
usually don't reveal our moment-by-moment preference to
continue, or slow down our thinking. They typically don't reveal
how we create experiences of lack and fulfillment, as these
are happening.
Transcending theory and practice
One way to break down our reified habit of thinking about practicing
and theorizing as distinct, and often mutually excluding activities,
is to reflect on what we are doing right now. So what are you doing
right now? Are you theorizing or practicing at this very moment?
Many readers will probably say that this is a purely theoretical
exercise because, at least up to this point, we have been "thinking
about and describing" the structures that separate and integrate
theory and practice. We haven't actually "revealed" any
biases in the here-and-now. Perhaps this is true. But when we ask
the question: "Is this theoretical or practical?"
we mean: "Is thinking about whether this is a theoretical or
practical exercise, itself theoretical or practical?"
Some possibilities
- One suggestion about what distinguishes theory and practice
is that practice consists of thinking about the "right"
things, namely, the things that our theories tell us we should
be thinking about. This will usually be things like reality, truth,
love, the movements of our breath, or even what constitutes real
practice. An assumption here is that some types of thinking are
theoretical and others are practical. In this case, spiritual
theorizing consists of thinking about what we should be thinking
about when we are practicing. Practice occurs when we actually
think about what we should be thinking about when we
are practicing.
However, if we don't refer back to what we should be thinking
about, we won't know if we are thinking about what we are meant
to be thinking about. So, in the absence of thinking about what
we should be thinking about we can never know if we
are thinking about what we should be thinking about.
Hence, we can never practice unless we are theorizing at the
same time. As such, there is no such thing as practicing,
as separate from theorizing.
A variation on the above theory is that practice consists of
"experiencing" love, wisdom, our breath, etc. while
theorizing consists of thinking about these. The implication
here is that when we are experiencing love or wisdom, we aren't
actually thinking about these. Perhaps we are thinking about
other things, but we aren't thinking above love or wisdom.
But this isn't accurate either, since when we are experiencing
love, wisdom, our breath, etc. there is no need to practice.
"Practicing" must consist of trying to be
loving, etc., while "theorizing" consists of trying
to work out how to be loving, wise, or attentive to
our breath. Also, it is impossible to experience love if we
don't have a concept of it. We may be manifesting behavior that
others call "loving" but this would be completely
transparent and inconsequential to ourselves. Why else do saints
and sages say that we need to transcend the concepts of self
and other, love and hate, and suffering and liberation.
- Given that we can't determine if we are theorizing or practicing
on the basis of how we are thinking, we might say that
what we are doing right now is still theoretical, purely in virtue
of the fact that we are thinking. We might subscribe to the ultra
radical view that "practice" consists of not thinking.
This is an experience that Hindu saints call seedless absorption
(nirvikalpa-samadhi). But in this state there is no practice
for nothing at all is happening. To practice is to enter the domain
of thinking, since we "know" what we are doing. From
this point of view, if we "know" that we are practicing
then we are theorizing. In fact, "practice" is a
theoretical activity. So, given that thinking doesn't allow
us to decide if we are practicing or theorizing right now, what
are we doing?
- At this point we might declare that although what we are doing
right now is a somewhat unfamiliar way of thinking, it must still
be theoretical because the act of "judging or deciding"
(if this is theoretical or practical) isn't a part of real practice.
Perhaps we have listened to teachings which say that when we practice
we "suspend the judging mind." But if this is so, then
we can never begin, or re-enter, a practice because the "decision"
to begin lies outside the domain of practice. Furthermore, we
can never decide to continue to practice, because "deciding"
can't be part of that practice. As soon as we think we should
continue, we have stopped, in which case we can't continue. In
fact, as soon as we decide that we are practicing, we cease to
practice. But, nor can we stop practicing because the "decision"
to stop simply cannot occur while we are practicing. But if we
can't stop, and we can't continue, then what are we doing? Certainly
we can never be practicing in contrast to theorizing. So given
that "deciding" doesn't allow us to stop or continue-what
are you doing right now?
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